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Wednesday, October 14th, 2009
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12:21 am
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I don't know why anyone ever deviated from this site in the first place, it has always been the best way to vent and receive feedback without everyone having to know post haste. not only that, but you knew if you wrote something, that people actually had to read your journal to know what's up, not just see it on their wall... with that said i will wait to bitch in a later journal.
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| Thursday, April 26th, 2007
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1:20 am
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I feel like someone stole my baby!...I can't stand relenquishing the control! it's seriously overwhelming me! Jesus! what the hell is wrong with me?
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| Wednesday, April 25th, 2007
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11:47 pm
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Ok, I had this stupid video project for spanish to do, right? I don't really care what kind of a grade we get on it, but i can't stand that thought of being part of a video that is incredibly stupid!! but still, i tried and tried to not let on that i know how to film and edit ( just cause i have a lot of shit to do and i don't want to be concerned with making a video as well). But when i realized that not a single person in my group had any idea how to film or edit, or even write for a video as opposed to an essay, i started to try to take control a little bit. But I'm with those types of girls that just want to do things their way, without listening to anyone that isn't cooler than them. Are you serious? They used my concept (cause i was the only one throwing out ideas that could even work on a video. and they got pissed when i would ask them questions about their ideas until they realized that it wasn't plausable at all)
It makes me so crazy to think that i'm part of this idiodic video that i didn't even get a say in how it was filmed (they looked at me like i was the worst bitch in the world when i wanted to do something from an angle that wasn't FREAKING HEAD ON! or do a re-take.) i don't think they agreed to a single re-take. not only that, but i don't even get to edit it! that is killing me!
The girl who insisted on filming and editing kept telling us that we have to do a whole scene at once or else there's gonna be a lot of black fading in and out when she cuts it.
... i was like, uh, well don't use a transition when you cut those scenes.
she thought about it for like a min. and then was like "well, maybe i could get that to work"
ARGHHHHH!!!!
I volunteered to edit this a long time ago, and she wants to do it because she doesn't want to write the spanish paper that goes with it. Goddamn it! i do not want to be any part of this piece of crap! we shot the whole thing in 1hr and a half! It's supposed to be 7 min long! not cool. She wouldn't even take my offer to come help her edit it. It's not like i give a crap about the grade, i really don't, but i don't want to be associated with this pile of shit!
Even with the retarted footage that we got tonight, i could have edited it into something decent. But this girl didn't understand anything about filming or editing! i know i'm making it sound like i'm some sort of expert, or something. far from it. you guys would be surprised. i've never worked with anyone who didn't have some sort of vision for the final product, and then letting that person complete the project? it's extremely frusterating!
Just had to let that out :D
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| Sunday, April 22nd, 2007
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12:24 am
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ok, so does anybody read anything from this site anymore? cause i know everyone went to myspace, i have one too, but it's not like you can spill your heart and sould there like you can here. at least that's how i feel. it doesnt seem like anyone wants to just talk on there. you need to have special purpose to leave shit there. i miss being able to read this site and catching up with my old dear friends, i may not have always left coments, but i alway read them, and it made me feel more connected. i feel like i have lost so much touch with all of you guys just because of the shift to myspace. i don't want to talk on there honestly, i need you guys here. i have no one to talk to that wont go around burning me behind my back. come back guys, come back!!
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| Wednesday, January 17th, 2007
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9:40 pm
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ok, i was unexpectedly strongly advised to take spanish in school when he saw my background in it (they don't offer French) So i've been trying to re-learn spanish that i pretty much forgot 4 years ago (yea, it's already been nearly 4 years!! holy shit!)
I had a realization today. Maybe it's just way too long over due, but i have to give props to Madame Wheeler. I am in a conversational Spanish class now and i am so freaking behind! Not behind the others in my class, but behind where i think i should be after taking almost as many years of spanish as i have french. Madame always had us speaking with her and eachother. I can speak french now, not good french i'm sure, but because of her way of teaching which was learning a couple of basic verb tenses: present, past and future. then she always had us learning more vocab. that's the best way i could possiblly think of to learn a language.
In Spanish, i mostly learned all sorts of crap that was never really relavent. Now, i can't express myself in the least in spanish. i don't know enough about one way of speaking in the past or present. yes, i know a lot about many different tenses, you know how it is. the point is that nothing was ever emphasized enough to really stick.
I got excellent grades in spanish, much better than french, but now even after being through spanish 4, i can't really participate in class (this is classified as spanish 2, 2nd semester)! it pisses me off! I'm gonna be good at it, but it's gonna take a lot more work for me because everyone else in my class has been learning conversational spanish since they started. It's not hard, it just made me realize how great of a teacher Madame was. I kinda want to tell her that.
Remember when i thought she was such a bitch all the time? maybe not, but i did dread her class. now i wish that all my language teachers had been like her.
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| Tuesday, January 9th, 2007
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12:05 am
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Remember when I can't remember being treated like so much shit from management since i've started working at Johnny Carrino's? Yea, it fucking pisses me off! I'm completely ignored unless they want to yell at me for something that's inconsequential anyways! i fucking hate that place, i'm ready to go back and serve the entire senile population of Bismarck at Cracker Barrel. how sad is that?
I told them three days ago that i probably won't be able to work my shift today because i was trying to enroll in college at the last minute, i called and told them for sure that i couldn't and they freaked out on me! maybe if they would have listed to me in the first place, they wouldn't have been so shocked! I hate them so much! let's burn it down!! That's a pretty sad sentiment to have after only working there for a month.
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| Saturday, December 30th, 2006
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1:18 am
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I got James the sweetest TV for Christmas. It's a 42" plasma HDTV. I love it.
James and i broke our bed a long time ago, so we've been sleeping on one mattress on the floor all this time. My dad wants to buy me a bed tomorrow as my christmas present, but he pissed me off tonight and now I'm trying to think of excuses to cancel.
I had a table actually throwing f-bombs at me the other day. I was so fucking pissed! I didn't stop shaking uncontrolably for a very long time. and now i still even go up to strangers and tell them what happened. I do.
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| Sunday, December 24th, 2006
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7:09 am
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Haha! I totally took this while i was throwing a tantrum too! i used to hate people who did that, but you know what? sometimes you just push people too far and they start to stop being a fucking push over!!
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4:17 am
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I started a new job. Johnny Carino's opened and i was hired on to the opening staff. it's been pretty cool so far, I'm really amused to serve alcohol. it sucks though because people want me to recomend wine to them but i have no idea about the wine list and we weren't trained in that area. James works there too, he's already a training cook there, which makes it a lot more fun for me. So now i work two serving jobs, i like it though. I make such good money.
i've been wraping presents for days now. i have to wrap for james and for seth because they claim incompetence at wraping. I decorated a tree for us with an angel and a bunch of bows, i love it so much. no ornaments, but there's time for that in the future.
My dad was snowed in in Denver, he almost didn't make it home for Christmas, but he ended up having to take a taxi to the airport (because his car would have never made it) and renting a car and is arriving here sometime tonight.
I can't wait, i love Christmas so much! Merry Christmas everyone!
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| Tuesday, November 21st, 2006
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2:37 am
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I cut one of James's friends' arm pit hair off with a knife and then proceeded to feed it to him. Then i made him vacuum my appartment. We were partying, it was funny.
Good news, I have an A in the online class that i'm taking for Sara. I'm a tool.
I'm so excited, i only have two weeks left at Cracker Barrel full time! I start at Johnny Carrino's on the second, and so does james and about half the girls i work with. I can't wait for that place to open!
Have i told you guys that i talked James into taking a couples dancing class with me? It's about half over now, but he didn't want me to tell anyone that he was taking a dance class. it's ok now though, he's come to terms with it. I love him so much!
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| Saturday, October 28th, 2006
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1:26 am
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Yea, so i was watching Fraggle Rock and one of the characters reminds me exactly of Alex DiGicento (spelling?), really the spitting image, it's weird.
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| Tuesday, October 17th, 2006
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5:50 pm
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Sara broke up with Loren and made him move out the next day. The day after that, his mom admitted him into rehab. It's crazy, sure didn't see that one coming. Now Sara has to pay the whole $500 rent, $70 cable, $50 utilities, and $250 car payment by herself for the next two months while she's going to college. I don't know how she's gonna pull that one off, she doesn't even have a credit card for a back up, and her parents suck at helping her. that also means that she's moving to Beach (town about 3 hours away) to live with her mom at the end of those two months. well that sucks!
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| Friday, October 13th, 2006
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8:32 pm
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Yay! After being overlooked for oh so very long, I've finally been recognized as employee of the month. yay. that's funny too, because i am such a slacker at work compared to how i used to be, i've even begun to refuse to train new employees in, refused to work any extra shifts or even work past 3:00. Maybe being a bitch is just the way to go to get ahead. Good lesson.
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| Wednesday, October 11th, 2006
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3:27 pm
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The other night it was about midnight and suddenly James is like "well, I'm gonna go ahead and take the trash out." I was like, um, ok. it's the middle of the night but didn't think much of it. He came back upstairs with a single rose in his mouth and a bottle of champagne! It turned midnight and he was like "happy 17 month anniversary, baby." How romantic! I love him so much!
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| Friday, October 6th, 2006
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8:19 pm
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I went to the mall of america with james and two of his friends for three days last week. It was so much fun, we went one day at noon and went straight to the bar and took shots and got just drunk, then we went to camp snoopy, it was crazy fun!
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| Monday, August 28th, 2006
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9:42 pm
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Um, something really weird happened. Don't tell anyone, but i had a group sex experience last week. At first i was really freaked out about it, but now i just feel much closer to the people i was involved with. I wouldn't even be surprised if it happened again. I don't know how to react to my complacency with it.
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8:52 pm
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I remembered why it was so hard for me to read today. i started reading this awesomely interesting book, but ten pages into it my eyes started freaking out, turning red, and running tears all over the place. Yea, now i remember.
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| Wednesday, August 23rd, 2006
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3:15 pm
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| Sunday, August 13th, 2006
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8:14 pm
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i've been requesting the scedual of 8:00-2:00 at work these days. I work more hours for less pay, but i think it's worth it so that i can have my nights back to myself again. oh how i have missed my evenings to myself! James and I go to the river at least three to four times a week. It's the life for me. The current, a beer, my love, If this could last forever i wouldn't trade it.
I've even taken up cooking to fill my afternoons.
a few burnt pots, and some fire alarm mishaps, but i've become pretty decent considering my idea of cooking when i lived with sara was making a grilled cheese sandwich and filling the apartment with blue smoke.
i love north dakota in the summer time.
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| Wednesday, August 2nd, 2006
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7:31 pm
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We have a new manager at work now. He's in love with regulating on everybody for the most trivial things and he's a devout southern baptist. I don't like him one bit.
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